Outing before yyo

     Thursday
 So I had my electone class in the morning.
 Surprisingly Pok said my playing was not bad..
    My reaction..O.O serious?! I played like shit~
 Whatever...its nice to get a compliment though XD
  After class.. practice~
    Then I accompanied Xinwei to fetch A..and meanwhile get some food for Xinwei since she cant really park well and so I have to go down...
   It seems that A is not that happy with me there..Its simply NOTHING but she is not happy with it @.@

 Back at school when Manhey showed me Neo's message that he is not going out with us..
 I seriously get mad!
   He said he won't ffk me!
 Called and he didn't pick up...Fire was already on my head.
 Thank god he replied me when I was in MP class saying that he'll go.
 At last he surrender~
    LMAO~
Then I went out with Celin,Manhey,May and Kyee to 1U.
  Met him at the arcade and headed to Johnny's to meet Manhey n Kyee..
   Hmm..Chat like mad as usual..laugh laugh~
  Being around that guy..I couldn't be normal XDD
     Its kinda fun actually..yet~I won't think anything else anymore =)

   Back to freaking YYO..
     I got the Viola again!!!God!! save me!
 The songs were nice actually..expecially Elgar's Chanson de Matin..I always love that.
 Emo and dark...

     I kinda like to stay up late night like this and go out with seniors aka friends..
 Seniors are not really seniors now..its more like friends.although we are in a different batch.
 This going to be part of my college life~
     I cherish all of you...my friends =)

Tuesday update

 So..Tuesday~
  Went to school as usual.
Sleepy as usual too ><
 Hmm~took AV key for practise.
      Then..Julie came outside the studio with those Ministry people.
I heard her explaining the rules about taking studio keys..bla bla bla~
  I wanted to go out and look for xinwei but that guy outside my door thought he interrupted me and asked me to continue..
 I wanted to say..'Dude..I need to go out okay'..stands in front of my door =.=
    So~improvisation class.
   Whats freaking annoying is that the Ministry people came in to observe~
 Impro class man!WTH?! Damn tension..
    Thanks god Richard 'acted' with us..Choose the one we've done before and acted like its the next exercise we're doing. (smart-ass teacher)
   They were in like about 10minutes.(what's the point?!)
 Thank god anyway...they really freak us out.
    
      History class was like usual..hmm~not that bored for me..
 Then my favourite!!!Jazz class!!
      I just loovee the teacher..he is awesome and freaking straight..I really like that
    Hmm..our class today is all about Weili talking about his music lifestyle things...reality about music industry~
  Love to hear that..and of course..as funny as usual =)

        After that..nothing much going on.
   Went out for some snacks with Andrea,Chooc and Rose..
      Ate tutti fruitti!!!! damn happy!! XDD
  
 Thats all for now~
 Oh yea..I created the best pic of Vanity =)

 LOL..cool huh? XDD
       But I kinda look short ><
    Duh....I need heels!!! XD

Monday..again =.=

          I'm really sleepy this morning.
    Feel like jumping in the bed again after waking up ><
    Its kinda warm..unlike the usual cold-to-death morning.
      Hmm..just like usual days~
Follow xinwei to school..
    
         Ooh..gotta mention again that my crazy mood is back =)
 I've face the fuckin reality and this is what I end up to be...as normal as I can be (ooh..it rhymes XD)
   So..went to school.Everyone was busy about the Ministry trip thingy~
 Hunting for tags to put out student card...
  Prepared for interview.but waited and waited...
  Hmm..whole morning practicing and chatting (wouldn't let go of chatting )
  
     Then afternoon I went crazy with Fiona,xinwei and the new student.
      LMAO..looking at stupid photos and laugh like hell in the hallway~
    Its kinda nostalgic..the last time did those laughing things until that stage is when he was here.
 Hmm..without him here its really boring~(see! how important you are!)
         Don't get cocky though~
   So..I laughed until I forget that I have class..
       Thank god I'm only late for 5 minutes.
   So class went on..

         I came out from class and heard that the interview has been canceled
       My reaction..WTF?!
       Damn stupid okay..told us to prepare and said it was canceled..thank god I didn't went and memorize the fckin handbook!
     Forget it..Julie biscuit owe us one! =P
        Went home early today..directly after my class at 4pm.
  
Thats all for monday.

In life

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept,



                                things we don't want to know but have to learn, 






          and people we can't live without but have to let go.

Things that are going on now~

      So..Its Sunday again.
 Woke up early and prepare for work.
 Oh yea! I wore colored contact lens in front of my mom already.
 I told her about it and she told me not to buy anymore after these 2 pairs.(Like I would XD)
Hmm..ate oat and some oreo biscuits.
  I gotta slim down..><
Daddy is poking me with those words again..
   I'm trying okay!...need some time~
 Hate it..why is it so hard to lose weight?!
  Its like doing so much but yet..Its still the same ><
So damn regret right now..stupid instant noodles!!!
  Things would be different if I did some changed back then..
Hmm....what's over is over now.

      Okay.so I went to work.
 Sleepy as usual..
      My student Joe..I'm kinda proud of him.
 I didn't thought he would improve that much but he was fine.
 Finally he started talking to me and could even joke..
   LOL..he is a cute little boy~ =)
I wondered how my teacher felt when she was teaching me last time?
    She has been teaching me since I was like...6?
    Yea..more than 10 years.
Thanks to her that I am able to be what I am today.
  
     That should be all for now..


To you..I still miss you ><
  

Thursday~1st yyo

      Had a good time yesterday~
 First is my electone class...Got some new songs~
 Very very nice but..IT KILLS ME with the freaking running notes and counting ><
  Practice the whole morning.
 Went hanging around then with seniors~
   Then its solfege class...hmm cute teacher we've got there =)

 Continue practicing plus some chatting with the new students and Fiona~
    Then finally..PRODUCTION!! after for so long.
 Its very nostalgic being in that room where he was there..
   Those program that he opened before for me to see..
 That particular place..brings back memories..
       Guess I still need some time before everything could go back to normal.
   I can't blame anyone for this case.
 Its me myself who dig this freaking hole and jumped in..sigh~
      Stupid me.

Then went for dinner with Celin, May and Andrea~loveys
   Hmm..did some photo shooting.. here it is

Vanity family~

Vampires with different personality..

This is a potret of me =)

own creation.

     The words down there means.
 Perhaps...it is destined 
         I won't try to get any answer anymore...


Hmm..back to the case.
  Night time YYO~(Yamaha Youth Orchestra)
   Forced to go this semester.
 It was kinda lousy to me..I got the Viola part on the Electone..
 Hell!!I got blur when I see the freaking score..
  ITS ALL IN ALTO CLEF!
     Xinwei was laughing all the way ><
 Kept writing the notes..each notes!
      It finished early..Dad fetch me home~
 Yeah.i summarized everything XDD


Yet I still..

unknown

        Tired..


   It feels kinda crazy..


        I've never felt this way before..


Sad case~

Monday..bored

       My day was as usual..
         Its gotten even boring.
     I played Final Fantasy songs the whole morning.
        The feeling is awesome.
      I really love those songs because they could make me play with feelings within.
 Its not often that I could play like that expect for my own creation.
      Andrea was right...she express through words and poems.
     I express through melody and notes~
        We could really be a good partner =)

       Monday is a really boring day for me.
    Only one class >.<
       Something is really wrong with me.
      I can't continue this way anymore.
          This got to stop!!
     Its so not me now...guess that is what it feels like.

        Really afraid.
      Thanks anyway to May for giving me some advise which..seriously helps me a lot..
        For now..thats all~I hope there would be something to continue~

Sad case..

Trying to complete my lyrics..

      But I could think no more..


         I have no idea how to express this..


Its not hate that I felt..


        Its frustration and disappointed towards myself..






Holding it up is easy..
            Letting it go..it maybe imposible.

For now?or forever?

          It feels weird..


    Still trying to think things in another way..


       Trying to adapt..


     I guess~


          Its not easy..Its really kinda tough...


     Slacking around in every corner.


       The feeling and the enthusiasm isn't there anymore..


         A simple song brings everything back..


     I couldn't hold back anymore~
           Its feels... disappointing and frustrating..


     At least there may be a next episode in this story..I really hope so~


       Laughing covers up things for now..could it be forever..


            Only time could tell..

Just hope that this is not the ending~ 


Who knows..

New semester starting

         I haven't been online since school started..until now~
       So..a lot of stuff has been going on lately..
          School started..everything is kinda different now..
      The atmosphere..the people..
         We got 2 new students this semester.One girl and one guy..
      About the new students..nothing much to comment but from what I heard they seemed good..
     So~quite a few senior stop schooling...
        Neo...one of my best friend in Yamaha..
    Its actually kinda expected that he wanna drop off..since he grumbled to me about his history thing and about Julie forcing him to re-seat history class again this semester.
      Hmm..guess I still have the thoughts that he would continue..silly me~
        So I guess this is it...he didn't contact And and neither of us at first..
     I went and message him..at least he replied.
          What the heck~he broke his promise...he said he will tell me if he decided to stop and he didn't..
      At least he did contact me after that..
           Julie and the staff was looking all over for him..no one knows his condo unit.(although some knows)
     It seems that Julie talked to his mother and she tried to call him but he didn't pick up..avoiding obviously.
     He is really playing it big this time..(kinda cool because I really didn't expect him to do that XD)
         His mom is coming to school tomorrow..hmm~this is so gonna be awkward..>.<
     I told him about this..then he called his mom just now~
        It should be okay I guess..at least his mom knows that he is fine..

     Chat with him today~
        Hmm...crazy again like usual..
      Everything out of topic.@.@
         Its really fun this way..
     Seriously..Yamaha life kinda start to suck
       I'm so so so so bored without him there..shyt~am I relying him too much as my entertainment??
     LOLL..

         Anyway~all the best ya bro =)

LOL..longest post~

Here I go again..

    My post today is so gonna be long XD

         Saturday-

         Woke up at about 11am..

       Went for teaching....what I don't like is there are tons of replacement to do >.<

     Hmm..My 10 years old student gave me a shocked..

      I didn't expect to get it so quickly and it seems like she had music classes before this..

       When god gave you something nice..it will certainly give you something bad to balance..

   Duh..too bad that my Grade 5 student is not that good...

      I believe that he will get better..at least he is willing to talk to me now =)

       After classes.dad came to fetch me...

         Then I get a phone call from Summer..

     Asking me to go Sunway with him~

        He needs to get a set of tuxedo for his convocation and also his most important presentation..

     People who knows me well should get my weakness by now XD

         OUTING!!anywhere will do..

        Hmm..my dad hesitated to let me go at first...I kinda...lied a bit..=P

     Mom was okay..I think she gets it that I'm this way...

        She just told me not to smoke and take alcohol..

     1st one..mom dun worry...HELL I would freaking smoke!!

        I hate CIGARETTE!!

     About the alcohol then...*hehe*..I cant really resist that XD

        

     So he came to my house and fetch me as usual..

          He is really nice in this way~

     He is always willing to fetch me from my house..

     Its kinda jam yesterday..no idea why~its just 5.30pm anyway..

      Reach there at about 6pm..(his driving speed=.=..speechless)

        He kept comparing stupid things and made me speechless..

Really feel like knocking his freaking head...

      Then we went in to G2000..

      Choose..choose...try..try..

       Guess what~I kinda shocked for a moment when he wore the tux..WOAHH..

   It looks like a totally different person....seriously!!

      Its not often that I see him in that serious face...

  At that moment that I was impressed..he danced moonwalk in the Tuxedo..=.=
    I was like...wat the heck??!
         Forget it..impression drop XDDD
        Then after the clothes...we went hunting for shoes~
     Fast!!Its only 10 min and we bought the shoes..
      Then I realize..OMG!he's been trying clothes for 2 hours!!!

     LOLL..then~went home..jam again..=.=
     During the whole journey...the only topic is....body fat..=.=
     After his freaking lecture and 'zat'..We bet for 3 months diet!
        Now I realize...IM AN IDIOT ><


        Went for dinner at Kenny Rogers.
      I ATE CAESAR SALAD!!! hear that!!!SALAD!!
          I need to decrease and he needs to increase...@.@
     how unfair!!!

         Until I reach home...thats all =)

Fragments

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments 


and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new.


 What is broken is broken 


-- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as






 I lived.

Offended

       I'm kinda offended by something.
     I was working just now in my shop.
      A girl from my previous secondary school came in (its just opposite my shop you see)
       She asked for guitar strings.
     I asked her what guitar is she using..She seemed to be blur.
       The conversation was something like that..
 Me: " Are you using acoustic guitar or classical guitar?"
She: " Emmmm......"
Me: " The strings are different so I have to know which are you using."
She: " O.O"
Me: "(took both of the guitar and asked her) This or this?"
She: " That one!"
Me: " This is an acoustic guitar."
She : "oooo...I'll take my guitar up tomorrow."


Get the point?
 I didn't want to comment about it but I really cant stand it.
My ex secondary school has a music club which teaches students pop musical instrument.
 Guitars,Keyboard,Drums..
I know its a great thing..but its very unprofessional.
 I was in the club and I saw the teachers teaching before and its kinda horrible.
 Those teachers are from a centre where most of them has no grades and qualification.
 They are merely just students that are learning at the centre or previously learned from the centre.
 They have not take the exam...fine..
 And yet they are teaching students in group.
  Whats even worse..The students don't hell KNOW what instrument they are taking!!
     Its not just that girl~even my sis's fren.
 Telling my sis that she is learning Country Guitar with 6 steel strings?!!
    As I know those people only teach acoustic..Where tha hell that come from??
 Acoustic IS country guitar and it ain't no 6 STEEL STRING!
      Duh...It made me guessed for days..
  At last told me..she was wrong..she was talking about acoustic guitar..
 My reaction..=.= wth?!
       Gosh!The teachers don't even tell the students about guitars when they teach?
  Its such a disgrace...to me..as a music teacher and a guitar lover..
       Damn...Its like the whole streets are guitar players when they don't even know what the hell are they playing.
   Its like making it so common and yet the quality is like a pile of shit!

If this offended someone too,you got my apologies..
But please..make this better~

Waiting for the new sem..

        So here I go again.

          Holiday for 2 months..and finally..
       School is gonna start next week and I'm thrilled about it =)
        Its freaking boring at home all the time (although I kinda go out a lot XD)
       Missed all of them..friends, seniors~
         Especially that 2 besties..Xinwei and Neo~
     Since the holiday started..I haven't seen them.not even once..
      I do miss you too sis but at least I've been out with you..
         Our crazy previous semester..I love that.

        Hmm..I have no idea whether is it just me or everyone has the same feeling..
      Previously when I'm still in secondary school..all I wish for is holiday~
        Now in college...I wish there are no holidays~
      I love what I study..I love my study life...I love my friends and seniors..
            Am I a freak or what?!
    
        Oh...I just realize something..
          Its about a someone..
       What happened to its over and still friends?
       Its like we didn't talk for...forever
         And yet~it feels weird when it isn't suppose to be that way~
     I know we are going in a different way..
        But I don't think you even take me as your friend now..
       If its that way...fine~
         I have nothing to say then...

Damn!

          Damn~
        Why cant you just be more open..

         For your information...this is 2011!!

        I know I should not be mad at you.

        But you've touched my limit...

           Don't act like you know everything when you know NOTHING!!

      Its fckin frustrating you know with your fckin thinking...

         MOVE ON DUDE!!

            Duh...you expect me to live in your world of green...village house where there are no lamps and electricity..

          What tha hell!

             I have my own way of doing things...

       Either you accept it...or just close your eyes and don't freaking look!!

         I don't fckin want your comments!!

Tired..

I really wish I had psychic powers..


          Tired of guessing people's thoughts..


             Although most of the time I'm right..


        Its really tiring..


          Can I live at a moment without thinking..


I wish so~

Saturday~

              So Saturday was kinda busy~
         Woke up at about 10am~prepare to go on a date with my best pal..Michelle
        Its to celebrate her birthday actually..
       Damn those old friends..All of them couldn't come...
           Left us two walking around the mall..
        I treated her Secret Recipe..
            Oh yea!I gave her a necklace that I bought for her as present..
         Glad she love it =)

           Hmm..we planned to go for karaoke initially..but there is only 2 of us and the charges are for per room...
       Hell its damn not worth it~
      End up...slacking around the corner..chatting XD
     Called daddy the whole morning but he didn't pick up~
        Thought of calling him over for karaoke >.<
         Hmm..finally he picked up my calls..
        He was at KL working..
      so..plan canceled...but another plan came up instead..

          Sent M back home..
          Then I went home and prepare to go to Mines with Summer..
         Pool and some alcohol~oohh yeah!
             Headed out at about 2pm..
           Going crazy again~
           After we arrived..I went to get some stuff from a friend who is working there..
         Daddy went to get his phone charger..
          Then here it goes...POOL..
          I just love to see pool games..
         I have no idea why..watching the balls roll over..dropping down in the hole~
       Hell I found that interesting..really different from other freaking sports..
          Its all about angle and estimation.
          Guess that's why his driving skills are so damn good XD
        
           Nothing special~watching and drinking..until my mom comes..
      Oh shyt! I forget that his charger was in my bag >.<
      LOL...so sorry~
         This is due to my mom kept rushing me!
       I even forget to pay him..WTF
       
          Then went to my grands house again..
     fckin tired already~and yet still have to go out..duhh
               Hmm...slack slack until the night..
         HOME!!
            Thats all I guess..ciao people~
         Back to work =)

Happy birthday dear~

Not really in a mood to blog today~
     Cant think of anything special to blog..
      I just wanna say Happy Birthday to my dear friend whom I know for 7 years..
         If its in precise..I guess I knew her for my whole life since our mothers were friends once..
 
        All the best in your future =)
       Hope for the best in your love life too XD
              Anyway~thanks for appearing in my life..
        I'll always remember you are the first person who appreciates my composition..
     That really means a lot to me =)

       My family members never cared what I played and composed..
        Its you who is willing to listen~
            Love you always =)

               お誕生日おめでとう～