2nd of December

Its gonna be 2nd of December in 3 days.

Mixed up feelings in me..

Its a new surrounding but then I'm alone.

Im not alone but im literally alone if you get what I mean.

21st birthday being in a foreign country without foreign people who are not close to me feels horrible.

I told myself not to expect and I'm not expecting anything special to happen.

But then I just don't wanna spend this day alone.

Why does it have to be this year?

All I want is for him to be by my side on my birthday thats it. I don't want any parties or ballons or presents whatever.

I just wanna go home for that one day which is impossible.

People here is just not for me to be close with. Its not my place here to make a close contact which I cant possibily see them again in the future.

Just normal friends I said to myself, no besties. 

Its just 10 months everyone said. 

Everyday is just hard for me...24 hours is just too much, add on the time difference.

I can't forget the best birthday of my life last year. 

I got a surprise cake from him, a present and a sleepover night with him and friends around to celebrate which completes my day perfectly. 

This year will be the most horrible one I presume. 

Just skip that one day off shall we?

Please? 

难过…

这两个月以来我都没那么的难过

他说我为什么那么过度想他

我想他是错的吗？

我没有怪他没在我身边

我没有怪他不陪我

是我来这里的错…

我只想要时时刻刻想他

知道我有个疼我爱我在等我的人…

我不要他讨厌我

我不要他觉得拖累我

我能怎样…

Second month in the UK

Its gonna be the third month soon that Im here in the UK.

Time does not pass by fast at all! 

I miss my hubby ❤️ missed his hugs and kisses >< 

I've been on the phone with him every single day and I'm proud to say that we're as fine as we used to be. 

This LDR will work...I'm confident about it.

He really loves me a lot and he is willing to wait for me.

Enough of my love story.

I've been to the Birmingham German Christmas Market just now and its really like the pasar malam we got in Malaysia. 

The decorations are really pretty and I manage to get a cute present for my hubby hehe.

The whole street was soooo packed that makes it really hard to walk. 

this is the crepe I ate. Its nutella with eggnog. Its really nice 😍 its 4£

I was thinking how nice it is if we celebrate christmas every year. The decos are really pretty! 

The picture above its actually a bar. I thought it was a carousel from far~ the queue reminds me of roller coaster queue haha!

I had this hotdog as well and it taste so good with the fried shallots~ Don't judge me haha. I actually added mustard, mayonaise, BBQ sauce and chilli sauce. I have a super 'heavy taste' tongue. 😁 this is 3£

The real carousel. It reminds me of when I was young, this was my favourite part of a fun fair. Daddy would always ride this together with me. 

I found this stall where they actually used real chocolate to make these stuffs. There are nails and bolts, cars...etc and its really expansive. I wouldn't eat that 😂

Pretty street lights. 

All I wana wish for is for him to be here with me~ experience these stuffs together with me❤️

I hope there'll be a chance for this. 

6th oct

Its been a cold day today and unfortunately I've catched a cold. Feeling not really well the whole day.

Its too bad that I can't go to the club tonight.

Anyway at this terrible time I missed him so much.

How I wished for him to take care of me when I'm at my lowest.

I felt really lonely today~ people that I do not know and don't really wanna talk to

Arion seemed like someone from a different world than I am and I know sooner or later we might diverge to another path for each of us. 

So I guess I gotta be super independant. 

All I want to do now is to stay in my room for the whole year and hope it passes fast. 

Basically so far we're the only asians in the whole school and of course particularly my course. 

Technology is certainly not for girls but I just loved it.

I've started to actually think that being here in the UK is not a right choice.

Do I actually need this I wonder?

Please

Please god..

Make this year really really fast.

I missed everything back there

I missed his hugs and kisses ❤️

Goodnight

First day

First day without you...

First day without you calling me up~

I miss you already.

我忍不住不哭我知道我答应你可是真的好难

老公我爱你…

我在这里很安全很舒服～

I'm currently in the hotel because of the stupid delayed flight that I cant enter the campus because its too late.

A little room but then its more than enough for a night. 

Tomorrow will be another rough day.

Hubby~

I love you I really do

Wait for me ❤️

In the UK

I've been in the UK for 4 days now and I still couldn't really believe it.

I'm miles away without him..

I missed him every second, wishing he was here with me at this gorgeous place with awesome weather.

He will hold my hands when I'm cold and give me a hug whenever I wanted it.

I missed his arms, I missed his chest.

The safetiness that I was given...

I somehow feel sad and frustrated when I worried him. 

He was worried about me and I cant do anything to make him feel better. 

Blame on the stupid phone line.

Today I was on the subway which actually was delayed with no reason.

Me and the gang was worried that we couldn't make it on time. 

Thank god we managed it.

My poor baby boy was worried about me that he woke up so early in the morning 😢

I'm really worried that might affect his health ><

Its all my fault. 

I'm afraid that one day he might give up and that all for me...

Breaking inside. 

Fingers crossed that wouldn't come. 

I love him

Pics from London to you ❤️

Today

Today is the day...

I suddenly feel scared to go to somewhere which I don't know at all. Meet people that I may not like.

Most importantly without the one I love.

He came to my house last night to accompany me.

I cried again....

I'm really super emotional. By just thinking of it I could pour tears anytime anywhere. 

I really don't know how would I handle myself tonight. 

Could I please stay back here? Could I just stay beside him?

I'm so sorry that I made him cry too. He is the only one who cheered me up everytime I cry.

I'm feel glad and proud to say that I'm very dependant to him. To the one and only one of my life.

He promised to wait for me. 

He said so at least....

Ipoh ; miss you

For the past few days I had been in my hubby's hometown, having great times. 

We ate great food and played with little kids and went to places.

The trip was simple but its so warm in the heart. Being around him is the best thing I could ever wish for. 

His hug, his care for me...its irreplaceable. 

I didn't know love could be in such way till now.

Us...

This morning le hubby texted me and made me cry~

I cant lose him and he cant let me go as well.

Its only a week plus time till I leave..

I really really will miss him!! 

I cant bear to not have him by my side. Its super torturing and its 10 months T.T 

I've learnt to depend on him, let him do everything for me and be like a princess to him. 

He loved me a lot I know that~ and I really wanna spend the rest of my life with him.

I can only hope the best for us. 

ILY

你很美…

我好喜欢好喜欢宝贝认真看着我对我说

你很美…

瞬间让我觉得我真的是世界上最美的❤️

至少在你眼中是…

晚安～

Anniversary

Yesterday was our 1st anniversary. 

I had a great time spending with the man I love~

We went shopping during day time and I got a advance birthday pressie for the lil sis which she longed for quite some time. 

I had a cool shoes to wear to UK and also a pretty phone case from my darling. 

Here it is 

So now I've got an hour glass behind my phone 😂 so adorable

As for the celebration dinner,

The hubby brought me for a nice and special buffet in Jogoya, Starhill ❤️

The food was awesome and I took a lot of ice creams hehe...

I love desserts so yea...

Hubby then gave me the prettiest pressie for our anniversary...

A really pretty couple rings which looked like wedding rings.. *shy*

I love it a lot! 😍

Thanks baby.

As for overall~ this is a memorable day which I would remember for the rest of my life. 

Thank you baby

你

昨夜的你

昨夜的我

茫然的活着

仿佛像个爱情的流浪者

今天的你

今天的我

注定在一起

天天想你天天害怕失去

我已经对你上瘾

上印在你给我的爱里

被你抱在怀里感觉

我好欢喜

当初的坏性格已被你

收服的彻彻底底

我改变了

都因我是你的

我已经对你上瘾

上瘾在与你的拥吻里

被你捧在手掌心的感觉

真的好温馨

当初的我已不再了

变成你愛的那一个

我是你的

你是我的

Honey's birthday

This will be a simply post for the day. I'll let the pictures do the talking 

This was when we are in the cable car :) 

Cold weather in Genting Highlands. Look at the mist and the smile on our faces ❤️

The pressie I prepared for him and left it on the bed to give him a surprise when he is bathing. 

Free cakes

 Interesting activity in the room haha. *our dinner*

Our supper of the day. 小笼包 @ 糯米鸡

Summary of the day.

All I want is just for him to remember me forever and wait for me to return from the UK. I love him and want this relationship to go on and on and on. 

Please remember the faces that I made which always made you laugh ❤️ 

Surprise from hubby

I was at home watching tv alone on this cold night where my family has gone into bed~

I felt some discomfort of my stomach and I went to the toilet for some cleansing and when I came out, the second I know is that my sister woke up to open our house's main door..

And who I saw outside is my lovely hubby!!

I actually stood there for a minute and look twice to make sure I got the right person 😂

I ran up and hugged him~

I missed him so much and the next thing I know is that he appeared before me...holding my favourite famous amos cookie!!!!! ❤️

This could be the best and heart-warming surprise I could get from a romantic man. 

Thank you so much baby~ ❤️ 

Pressie from hubby

Our date

Happiness and sadness comes together in these two days but yet that is what worth enjoying~

 

我会很不舍得你…

你问我我在机场会哭吗？

我可以很确定告诉你我会！我一定会！

I will never regret choosing you~

We looked so happy ❤️

And I want this happiness to last~

I love you.

Countdown a month and 2 weeks. 

Miss you

I've been busy lately working on my documents for my studies which is starting in a month time. This means that I am gonna leave this place very soon...

Its going to be my love's birthday next week and I've prepared his presents~

Its not a super expansive and special present but I hope he'll love it. This is his first birthday spent with me and I want this to be an unforgettable birthday for him...at least before I leave.

And so we're heading to the mountain hill for his birthday and we'll celebrate there in an awesome cold weather, just both of us.

How touching it is when a guy wants to celebrate his birthday with you and no one else ☺️ *shy*

P/s: I miss the man~ 

Throwback of our chilled night in my house~

Sweet love

Its 12.08am now and I just finish my call with the dearest love of my life.

It had been a daily routine for me since the day I said yes to our relationship that we video call / call every night if possible.

Its been almost a year and without listening to your voice or looking at your face I will start to miss you like hell. 

Talking to you is the best moment of my day. We could just talk and talk and talk without even putting in an effort to create a topic.

Our charisma its just amazing that I couldn't believe it sometimes. I guess he is really the one sent by god to me ❤️

Being together with him tend to make me learn more and more about the world, way of thinking, beinf mature and so on......

I grew up because of him. Mentally and physically~ photos are the best evidence. *will be shown below*

No other guy in this world treated me like what he ever did. No one can beat him in what he does best = pamper me like a godness ;)

爱我疼我，体贴，细心，可爱，笨蛋

Love me, caring, attentive, cute, stupid sometimes 

As John Legend's song mentioned,

Cause all of me, love all of you;

All you curves and your edges, all your perfect imperfections <3

The only imperfection he has is being jealous and that is not really an imperfection. He gets jealous because he cares and because he don't wanna lost me. I totally understand ❤️ And his jealousy could be super cute at times *better not let him know*

Guess thats all for tonight.

If he sees this. Love you ❤️

Before

A year after <3

Starting from today

I will blog time to time now.

These are the messages I wanna keep for my dear love before I leave.

I'm so glad to have you~ sorry that we fight over Neo yesterday.

I should have understand how you feel.

Everything is because of me, because of my past and because of letting you hate them.

夹在两房中间真的不好受…

But because of you I can let go everything I had. I sacrificed for you you should know it.

Pressured from other stuffs but I didn't tell you at all.

I really love you and I always will. 

You said you looked at our photos and we seemed so happy.

I am haopy, I was, I am and I will always be when I have you by my side.

宝贝昨晚哭了…

怕我走后寂寞哭了我是多心痛

我很后悔很后悔走这条路

我很后悔会离开你

我很想让事情变得更容易可是我说不出口也做不到…

You are too important to me ❤️

ILY

Tiring saturday~

Its Saturday once again and it will always be my worst day of the week. Its sooooo tiring teaching those kids who doesn't practise every single week and gives all sort of lousy reasons. 👿👿

And so~ the day goes on with 1 hour class for each student today as to replace their previous absent classes.

Its kinda tough since they can't really pay attention after the first half...

Anyway I got my bonus today :) although its not much but then its good to have some extra money 😬

I missed my baby boy~

 We hadn't been texting much lately because of his work...

  I actually wondered how would it feel if I could see him all the time, everyday after work ☺️ A comforting hug when I need it~

Having him by my side is all I need ❤️ 

It looks like its gonna rain soon ☔️☔️

Ps: I saw this just now and got melted 

End story~ xoxo

After for so long..

And so I randomly came back in blogspot due to my boredom at home since I graduated college a few weeks ago.

Time is just so fascinating to me as it really changed me to the person I'm sorta proud of now. Not totally but at least much better than what I was previously.

I'll just try to update stuffs on my recent life.
So I lived happily ever after with my baby boy who is really really so much better than my previous horrid ex. He really cares and would really do anything just to make me happy. I'm glad to have him as well as glad that my family actually accepts him.
My sis is super satisfied with him :)
My mom seemed fine with me being with him and cared about him sometimes, without her realizing..my dad is as quiet as usual, not having ant comments about him.

So as for now we've been together for almost 5 months which is actually my longest relationship of all. (I'm serious)
After everything I've been through last year after that horrid brokeup I actually think that this is worth it with him 
He is everything I wanted as a boyfriend, a lover, a family.
He dedicated his time his heart all to me and I really hope that this will last as what my friends said. We're really sweet after these whiles and my friends do actually envy us hehe xD

Anyways I'll just kick out a photo.

I really love him. 

I do