2nd of December

Its gonna be 2nd of December in 3 days.

Mixed up feelings in me..

Its a new surrounding but then I'm alone.

Im not alone but im literally alone if you get what I mean.

21st birthday being in a foreign country without foreign people who are not close to me feels horrible.

I told myself not to expect and I'm not expecting anything special to happen.

But then I just don't wanna spend this day alone.

Why does it have to be this year?

All I want is for him to be by my side on my birthday thats it. I don't want any parties or ballons or presents whatever.

I just wanna go home for that one day which is impossible.

People here is just not for me to be close with. Its not my place here to make a close contact which I cant possibily see them again in the future.

Just normal friends I said to myself, no besties. 

Its just 10 months everyone said. 

Everyday is just hard for me...24 hours is just too much, add on the time difference.

I can't forget the best birthday of my life last year. 

I got a surprise cake from him, a present and a sleepover night with him and friends around to celebrate which completes my day perfectly. 

This year will be the most horrible one I presume. 

Just skip that one day off shall we?

Please? 

难过…

这两个月以来我都没那么的难过

他说我为什么那么过度想他

我想他是错的吗？

我没有怪他没在我身边

我没有怪他不陪我

是我来这里的错…

我只想要时时刻刻想他

知道我有个疼我爱我在等我的人…

我不要他讨厌我

我不要他觉得拖累我

我能怎样…

Second month in the UK

Its gonna be the third month soon that Im here in the UK.

Time does not pass by fast at all! 

I miss my hubby ❤️ missed his hugs and kisses >< 

I've been on the phone with him every single day and I'm proud to say that we're as fine as we used to be. 

This LDR will work...I'm confident about it.

He really loves me a lot and he is willing to wait for me.

Enough of my love story.

I've been to the Birmingham German Christmas Market just now and its really like the pasar malam we got in Malaysia. 

The decorations are really pretty and I manage to get a cute present for my hubby hehe.

The whole street was soooo packed that makes it really hard to walk. 

this is the crepe I ate. Its nutella with eggnog. Its really nice 😍 its 4£

I was thinking how nice it is if we celebrate christmas every year. The decos are really pretty! 

The picture above its actually a bar. I thought it was a carousel from far~ the queue reminds me of roller coaster queue haha!

I had this hotdog as well and it taste so good with the fried shallots~ Don't judge me haha. I actually added mustard, mayonaise, BBQ sauce and chilli sauce. I have a super 'heavy taste' tongue. 😁 this is 3£

The real carousel. It reminds me of when I was young, this was my favourite part of a fun fair. Daddy would always ride this together with me. 

I found this stall where they actually used real chocolate to make these stuffs. There are nails and bolts, cars...etc and its really expansive. I wouldn't eat that 😂

Pretty street lights. 

All I wana wish for is for him to be here with me~ experience these stuffs together with me❤️

I hope there'll be a chance for this.