Last week of January?oh yeah!

           Wohoo!went for driving exam this morning and I PASSED!!
                  Thank god man...real lucky..
            Everything went well..
                    Whoo...is good that I don't have to go the 2nd round..haha

       The bad news is that I don't get paid today!
              No work no money..why does it have to be like that?!
            Stupid reality..
         Without me even realizing..I've been working for half a month now..^^
        Erm..what I could say is..its really not that bad..XD
                With him always being with me through phone..=.=
            Wat the...only weekends we could meet..
          Have to accept it.T.T..
                Soon...I will be there!!chotomate =P
          
           Why...why is the intake so slow...!!!
                    I really wanna study now!
                   I want my laptop too!!
                     All I can do is WAIT and DAYDREAM.=.=
                Always imagining how would it be in a college..fun huh?no idea yet~
              Zzzz...still waiting..damn time!cant you walk faster!!
                    I'm going crazy alone..sry~

            Conclusion is...I'm waiting XD

Mid of the month

                 Time ticks by..
             I get use to things already..
                    No longer frustrated...Just keep trying to do my best
       Week by week..another 2 weeks is Chinese New Year..I'm really looking forward to it^^
              My nice new clothes!love it!
          Looking forward to drive back to hometown(although its quite boring back there) but thats the spirit I need..New Year spirit..
             I took a week of holiday..poor boss and the Malay workers..gambateh!
          
            Nothing much going on..
              He went for holiday trip overseas...bored~
          It feels kinda weird to have one day without listening to his voice and receive his sms..
          Have to admit that I do miss him^^
           Hmm..gonna come back soon..i hope~

       I get to rest today..learn driving..
            Speak of driving..I'm going to go for the driving exam NEXT WEEK!
            Omg..finally!
           Just hope for luck and all the best to me..
        
           All my friends...T.T
          Everyone is busy and busy...even my best friend..~
        Enrolled in college..left me alone..he is soon to go too >.<
          I really want to study now!I wana go college...really wanted it~
        Perhaps I shall stop here due to 'out of idea' sickness I've got..tata~
        

Everything on the current

           Time passes by..another off day for me^^
        This is my second off day of working..
            The longer I work..the more that I felt that I can overcome this 2 months..
          Its  gets kinda interesting observing people and get to know other people..
           The senior Chinese workers are really charismatic and hilarious as well as nice to me~
         They are not those kind of people who would 'kill' to get commissions..
           So..conclusion..I'm okay^^

       Things changed a lot these days that I can't even cope with myself..
            I've started a relationship which still make me feel wierd.(sorry)
          Seriously....
           Ok..here is the truth..I still don't feel secure..
        Just..maybe he is busy and I am always busy too..
            Frankly..I still doubt myself for making this choice..
          Will I make it even worse..hurt you more than you have been hurt last time?
         It may not be your problem but..this is just to express myself...
         Im happy and sort of worry and confuse at the same time.....
      Hmm..more time for me will sort things out^^don't worry~

          Skip..
        Headache thinking of my audition..I will pass through but I really want to put out my best..
              Damn..my time planning won't allow that..
            Working working working....
                 The worse part is..this is just the beginning..><
            Im hoping for chinese new year..MONEY!!
                    
                  Guess thats all~
            Will update ASAP..(hope so)

another new year of experience

                    So here is a new year..
              I didn't get to update my place..
                  Tired..haiz

            Here's the thing..
    New year eve..31st December..
               The most memorable time with the guild..
              The heat of fire is the heat in our heart~
           Cherish when you can..grab it hard..thats what I wanted to do but..
            It wouldn't last
        It hurts..it really does..
                   Unfortunately time passes by..thats the end where everyone have to turn around and walk their way
         Brian was so sure that our path may have a roundabout where we will meet
            but how many would there be??
          
      1st of January...1st day of work
        First day was good as always....my feet sores!! 
              I managed to sell more than 10 shoes (i work in a shoe shop)
           Hmm..quite happy and satisfied..when brian asked me I told him its fun^^

      Days passed by..everything starts to cold down and I get some time to realize something..
           I really felt tired and lonely and loss of direction..
            Its really misty in my mind~
     The routine kept repeating over and over again everyday~
             Whatever I'm going to do must be thought off and planned 1st..or else someone is not going to like it.. 
              The aircond there is very cold.. especially these rainy days
           Its seriously cold...i can even feel it in my toes (take note that I''m wearing sneakers)
             I really do hope I could see my friends again..or at least how I wish that they are working with me
      
     All I could think is how much I earn and how much I can spend
                Its really a torture when it came to meals..
              The food there was damn expansive..I wanted to go outside the mall to eat but theres only an hour break..
        Then I'm going to be late and my money would fly away~
             I usually skip lunch where no outcome is spent..dinner..not more that RM5
        
    
           This is something I get to realize..
      Doing jobs that we don't like really affects a lot in our lives 
          All the things that I'm doing currently kept repeating all over again every single day..
      Waiting for time to pass by to go home..then its another day~
               Before I slept..i was thinking...what the heck have I done today.. 
         Guess what..NOTHING!
           Am I going to do this for 2 months??
        hmm....no idea
           Every week waiting for break off? Hell yeah!
           Damn it~

         I really am going to praise those who worked there for...6 YEARS!
            Are they really that desperate?
            Numb already...
           Wat the..only 5 days passed..T.T

              This picture really shows how I felt~
                 Looking towards undirected path..
                 I wan college!!!!!