300th post!!

  Oh yeah~
      Its my 300th post!!
  Congratulation to me..(oh duh~I'm getting stupid again)
    Hmm..first I wanna thank my family...my friends (cut the crap XD)
  Oh..sorry..back to reality

     My students all canceled class today.    
 So then..plan changed..I went for movies with Xinwei at Jusco.
     This is the first time I watched horror movie in cinema (clap clap)
 Paranormal activity 3..wohoo!
    Its kinda....not really scary seriously..
    I got shocked about 5 times..thats all.
       The screams were kinda predictable but the story..I didn't expect it to be this way.
 Like what May said..unpredictable this time.
       Hmm...so now I get it..
  The one I pity the most it Katie..
    At first she was not the one who 'communicate' with those things but why end up she is the one who was possesed?!
 Her dumb sister...she is really stupid enough to make things this way =.=

     Fine..next..we had a little walk.
      Got some things then went home.
  I got myself some Ricola candy =)
      Hmm..we went to Metro after that because Xinwei wanna get something
 Guess what people?
    I did something freaking brave that I wanted to do for years and didn't have the gutz!
  Thanks to Xinwei.. XD
     I always end up doing crazy stuff with her...here it is
 I FINALLY PIERCED MY EARS!! MY 3RD HOLE!!
      Congratz to myself..I realy didn't expect myself to do this.
  Anyway...Its not that pain okay!
    Stupid me for being this scared all along.=.=
 I feel idiotic right now..
        Its almost...nothing! It just feels like a papercut..thats all.
    But one thing..I'm not really scared of pain actually..
   Unless its an injection (psychology problem) XD
 Braces was not a problem at all for me (laugh proudly)


     Duh...okay~
 Guess that is all for now.
   I gotta prepare to celebrate someone's birthday =)
 Ciao~


Before that..here is a picture I took in JCO~(with Xinwei's iphone )

FYI..wearing fake eyelash XD

Memories

   Its tomorrow.
      Hmm~going for dinner with him for is birthday~
 So sorry that I can't go to his party..I really hope to go especially in Mist Club.
  Too bad for me ><
     Anyway~
  Poor sis...getting emo and trying to defend herself by numbing her heart.
    Don't worry too much..what is yours will be yours..what's not is not worth hurting yourself for it.

  Its a fine day today and yet I have no where to go.
    Thought of watching Paranormal Activity with May and Xinwei today.
 Too bad Xinwei can't go.
  Its been boring today.
    Woke up...have brunch...online.full stop.
 I wanna watch movie!!
        I wanna go for karaoke!!
    Missed the past times where I went for karaoke with Andrea,Neo, Summer and Bronson.
  Really crazy..although I was not that happy that day.
    Thanks to them I manage to pick up myself after a horrible day~(for those who remember)
  Them sending me home... humoring me all along the journey..
    Nostalgic..those are all memories~beautiful memories...

     Anyway..those are part of my Semester 1 memories..
 Hmm...I still do miss the times where I was going crazy with Neo and Andrea.
   Everyday of schooling day was crazy to me.
      Laughing fills up the cold atmosphere..
  Being with them is the best thing I've ever felt..
    Although right now one is gone..another one is still here..
      I know its impossible but I really hope the back time feeling could still be here..
 Possible??
  

All for today

 So..masterpiece is out!!
  Thank god I could make it in time..
 Weifung..the system is damn easy lar! ><
   I really feel like vomiting blood just now XDD\
  Too bad the balancing is still kinda...terrible~
      At least I could make it for this Saturday =)
  
   So I went to school for drum class today~
    Elaine seemed to be weird again...hmm..no idea
  So..after class I went for lunch with May and Celin in Oldtown.
 Ate asam laksa..not bad actually XD
     Back to school after that to finish my works.
        Special thanks to Weifung for trying to help me~
    Then dad came to pick me up. My sis followed so I brought her to me 'lab'(MPR)..
  That place is seriously my HEAVEN..
    How I wish to transform my room into mixing room~
     Full of synthesizer and I shall name it.. 'Studio Bedroom'
       First in the world and it shall be mine to own! XD
 
     Hmm..guess there is nothing much to mention about today.
    My overall mood---- awesome XD
      Oh!
    I need advise here...should I do a makeover for bloggie??
    

These days

      Its been weird these days..
      What I meant is the 'atmosphere' surrounding me..
  The people around me.
    All gotten emo..It seems that these is this 'emo-gas' passing around.
     Sis lost her mood yesterday~
          Didn't really wanna talk so I stop asking..I wonder if she is okay right now?
  Hmm...Next was Summer..wrote on the event message as if he is gonna suicide any moment..scared me!
    
      Yesterday I went back to school for class.
   Went for lunch with Xinwei and Fiona..really missed the last time 3 of us went to Midv~
     Ate porridge for lunch..quite big bowl of it.
       For the afternoon..class again (all the replacements)
          Then went back home at about 4pm.
      Mom said she wants to go to the night market so we went.
       I asked daddy but he didn't reply my message.
   By the time we went there it was raining so we waited for it to stop in the car.
       Then its was just drizzling so...fine~its ok for me =)
        Then it starts to rain back again (damn!)
    We just find a stall which sells thai food and sat under the shade and have out dinner.
      The rain is getting worse..wat the! spoil all the stupid fun ><
         So then thank got it gotten smaller and at least we get to walk around.
     Oohh..forget to mention..I got myself 2 more pairs of eyelashes and finally bought the glue =)
  Finally daddy called me...Its raining anyway so I told him not to come.
    His health is not so good these days..
         Before his birthday I don't hope to see him getting sick again.

       His present..really tied me up..
  This time its really tough..my god~
     At least I'm fine with going through it because this is all I ever liked =)
  
 This is to sis if you ever read this.:
     Remember you're not alone okay =)
   Although I may not be a great company or a great whatever but I'm willing to be there for you when you need it ok.
   Cheer =)


    Today..
      All I could say is boring!
   Hmm..I wonder if everyone is okay by now?
       I shall wait then~
  Iphone 4s...when are you coming to me?!!T.T

Holiday start!

Yesterday was sorta..dull~
      Teaching again...Saturday will soon to become my teaching day..
    The center is gonna add 8 more students for me..woah~
     I'm gonna go crazy.
        One thing that is fine about it is...CASH! Muahahaha
    Now I start to feel the satisfaction of teaching although its just a few months.
     The students I taught started from zero..totally  zero..
   Now...They seemed to improve a lot~(thank god I got some brilliant student XD)
   
     Okay..so I went to gym yesterday.
    They got some new treadmills =)
  Its really nice to sweat once in a while..
    Summer called me after my bath.
   He is fine right now after going for treatment again yesterday morning.
      Its gonna be his birthday next week..I wonder if I could make it ><
  Trying hard to accomplish his present in time..
      Anyway..he is gonna celebrate it in a club and 'smartly' asked me to go!
  He knew I cant and yet trying to seduce me into that so call 'heaven'....wth~(I really wanna go!!)
       Fine...I shall celebrate with him next time~
 
  Its holiday now...again~
      Its so fast..It seemed like the last semester break just passed..
     I don't want it to be that fast!!!
   I still wanna enjoy my 18th! spare me!!
    So..it also means that I can't meet my siss for a week..too bad
 
  Oh yea~dad told me about a news in the newspaper yesterday..
     Its about a kid who choked to death eating a meatball..
 I'm so sorry but I laughed like hell!
   My 1st reaction is 'wth?! That could really happen??'
  LMAO...so sorry but I can't help it myself.
    Sorry kid..rest in peace

     Guess thats all for now.

Back again

         I have not been online for days.
    Finally I'm in front of the computer.
      I always reach home late these days..
   Now I start to do some productions for assignment project.
      I've been waited long enough to do this.
   Hmm...really challenging and interesting~
      I showed Pok my song and he says not bad..he don't even believe it was done my me.
   Right now I've got so many projects waiting for me to do~
     my assignment song, my composition using Andrea's poem and a present for someone..
  I really need lots of time ><

      Lots of incident happened these days..
    Too much for me to write in here..I'll try to summarize it.
    About Solarize (my band).
      We're doing just fine..not bad actually...
   It has been a while since I played the bass..thank god I'm not that rotten..yet XD
      We got 2 professional coach so...I guess we'll do just fine =)
   Too bad that we could only practice once a week..
    
    Yesterday was crazy..
    We laughed like hell before YYO.
 'Doremon' came late and we waited.
       Cheryl used 45 min to finish a Subway sandwich due to excess laughing caused by me and May.
       May spoke in Russian accent and mine..Italian (though it sounds Mexican XD)
  
     Okay..lets talk about today..
    I don't hell know whats going on with me today.
    So sorry if I scared you guys.
      The only moment I felt okay is during  and practice.
  I woke up this morning and don't really felt like talking..
     Did treatment to my hair..
       I feel...weird.
         Its better if you guys don't ask.
     Leave me for some time..I will be alright~
    Neo came back for a file today..he looks different now..A little weird actually..
    
     These days..I seemed to trigger the largest interest of my life..
    Live band performing..and music production..
       I cant help myself going high looking at the mixers and synthesizers..
    I don't mind doing that for the rest of my life~
       Although I'm not good right now but I'll make sure to improve myself before I graduate and make sure I mastered in it.
     Could I achieve that??

        Him...is he okay?Is the pain still there?
   I've got no idea.
     It seemed to be better a few days before but now...its like nothing.
   Is it really nothing or...?
         I don't now anything right now..my mind is almost blank right now.
     Whatever will be will be =)
    

 
  

也许

也许

一切都是自己的猜测

也许

一切都不是真的

所谓的等待，只带来伤害

心里一直都不愿放下

顽固的自己......

                                          最终～也许什么都得不到

夏

Envy!

      Saturday = teaching day to me.
 Woke up..ate brunch..went for teaching.
      2 of my students didn't come..
 Waste my time waiting..
    Okay~back home..online do nothing..
 Blog..fbing~
   Tonight I'm going for MPO for the 1st time in my life O.O
 I know its a failure..1st time in my whole life I'm watching an orchestra..my god~
 
Oh...right just now I saw Neo's photo in facebook.
 He is releasing his 1st album..(no idea what kinda album)
 Chat with him a bit..seriously envy!!!
     Forget to ask about the album.
 He said I also could do that..but I don't think so.
    I don't think I have the package to these things..
 The most I can get it behind the scene..and that is what I'm aiming for.
 So glad for him. At least his choice to stop pays some price.

 As his disciple~I must work on too!
   Cant lose to him...you just wait!I'll be there someday!! =P

This week summarize

Its been a while since I online.
   Really tired these days after reaching home.
 Homeworks...practice..hectic~
    Real sorry for not updating blog these days.

   I'll just state some big things that is going on this week.
First..stupid 'Johnny Bravo' ( a teacher in yamaha with weird body just like JB)
  He never liked academy students.
    On Tuesday my bag n xinwei's was in St 8..he went and hid it and told us he didn't notice who took it..
   Xinwei and I went everywhere searching for it..asking Julie,the counter downstairs..the cleaner..
  Whats even worse it the car keys are in the bags..we cant even go home~
   We went in to the studio and look 4 3 times and finally choochin open the cabinet and its in there.
 Omg..I really went mad!
  
   Next..Wednesday was as usual..with vocal~
     Oh yea~I'm freaking going mad at a person too..
 Not JB this time....hurting my friend is a terrible mistake bitch!
     I've got plenty of reasons to hate you!!
 Don't greet me when you see me because it makes me feel disgusting~
    Your actions especially....speechless..
 Don't think that you can own the whole world!
     Take a mirror and look in it!! You are just a bitch!
 
Thursday...YYO was okay
 I finally mastered the alto-clef!!!
    Congratz! LOL
 Why I always get the Viola part ><
  Before that I went out for dinner with Celin,May,Manhey,Kaayee and Xinwei.
     We even went crazy in Mcdonald..laughing all the way~makes my stomach cramp.
 Love hanging out with you guys =)
  One thing I love about my current school now is there are not many students..
 Means we are quite close to seniors..
   Unlike those big big colleges..they don't even know who the hell is their seniors~
 It seemed big but from what I observed..their friend circle is not that big either..
    Its will always be that gang going in and out..
We....one word..UNITED! XD
      Right Weifung? XD

   Hmm..another thing about Production.
 They changed to Cubase program..
     Too bad the key is not allowed to use overnight.
 Means I've got no time at all to do..O.O
    No idea how to plan my time now..I planned to stay till the night to do but now..
 Dead..
     All the times I had,the room is occupied..
 I have no idea why workshop class must be at that room...
     I hope Pok is gonna come out with a good solution~
    

My finger

         Today I went to school early because Xinwei's class starts early.
   Poor me..have to go at 7.30 in the morning for 3pm class.
       Its okay actually..we gotta tolerate each other anyway.
 She waits for me...I wait for her.
      So..morning was excellent..
  I'm suppose to accompany Sue with a guitar for her lunchtime concert.
     We try off The Show by Lenka..but then it gets kinda boring because we're doing in in band idol anyway.
Oh yea!! I forget to mention that I'll be going for band idol this year.
     Something different this time.I'l playing bass instead of guitar.
 Wooh....excited~
      Before that..always this problem..Band name!
 I suggested SOLARIZE and they seemed to like it (as there are no any other ideas)
     Nostalgic..it has been a long time since I played in a band~

 Back to lunchtime case.
       We kept changing songs..and my finger damn hurts playing the guitar~
   Although so..I'm actually okay with it..I love guitar..I love pop songs.
       Final decision! Just the way you are by Bruno Mars.
     Then I went to KLCC with Xinwei to get the MPO tickets.
      Its kinda fun actually...then I get a Shu Uemura concealer and I'm both happy and frustrated.
   Happy because I got it...frustrated because I'm so FREAKING BROKE!!
       I need cash~ I shall wait for my money to come ><
    Then I went back to school for class.
        After class..Xinwei seemed depressed.
  Hmm~guess some freaking bitch went crazy again...whatever..

       Its been hours now and my finger still hurts!!! T.T
  I'm paralyzed!!!
      And so...oh yea~
 Guess no one is more crazy than me..
   I've change my piano songs for 3 times already..
Too tough for me to handle...
     Finally ended up with Bach and Chopin again!! Exactly same like the 1st sem
  
    Thats all for now I guess..
  Fingers hurts!

Inner me

I didn't really update my blog lately..
 Too much is going around my mind.
 So..classes as usual.
Performed on wednesday for lunchtime and it freaking sucks!
 I stopped and repeat again ><
 Oh god..I guessed I look like an idiot out there.
Xinwei got sick these days..
   Andrea is still that happy..
 Me...I don't know exactly.

 Sometimes I feel like I don't know who I am anymore.
   Xinwei said that day..Why does it seems like I'm the only one who won't go emo?
 Hmm....I'm a typical Saggi I guess.
   Hate to show out what I really feel..what I am inside.
    Unlike those tiny whiny girls who kept going emo...crying for no reason~
  Unfortunately guys buys that @.@ Whatever...
   Things had been tough lately..everything kept flooding my mind.
 Guess not one even notice huh~  I prefer it this way.
     Everything beside me seemed so uncertain..
 Too much guessing to do...I really do get tired sometimes.
     Tell myself not to guess further..but my heart and brain don't seemed to listen.
 I still kept back to that concept..
    'No one in this world could help me in terms of mentality except myself '
 I can't depend on anyone...advise is just a way to calm self down for like....an hour?
      Evidence...can you be trusted??
 I can't bear it anymore to get hurt or to hurt someone.
     I've been protecting and covering myself up long enough to be crushed..
   My limits went over once..not this time again.
        Guess that is what my life meant to be...right now I just feel like getting a dozen of Heineken.
 
   I actually had a chance of going out tomorrow night..
 Too bad the tickets are sold off...
      Sigh.. disappointed.

 I'm currently composing a song using Andrea's lyrics.
       I just love to compose...This is the only thing I can do whole day thinking without getting bored.
 I can't believe I wrote down every notes with every counting the whole morning.
   This feeling doesn't come often...
By feeling I mean the feeling during composing...
    I can fall in love with my composition..The melody..the message that I wanted to tell.
  So far in my life I've never found someone who could really transcribe my words in a composition..
    Until a few months ago..I was shocked and impressed.
No one really understands and love my composition for its feeling and the meaning.
     All I found these times is just because it sounds nice..thats it.
 Everything I wrote or played...there certainly is a message inside..
    Just waiting for someone to unlock it.
Message that was hidden deep in the maze of my heart.
 People kept asking me why play it so emo??
      I never answered...not once~
 The notes are words for me..If anyone even realize..
I don't compose or play my stuff that often...
     Okay..sometimes its damn bored.but mostly...there are times for it.
No one ever knows =)


        The one who I'm waiting for is the messenger to my melodies..

    
  
    

Glad

Glad that I realize things

Glad that I have them

Glad that I have all of you guys =)

时间

是我错
是我不对

我没察觉

我不够敏感

我到底是不是伤害了你?

是时间在玩我们

是时间的差距     让一切都不同了

你的温柔体贴我能感受
可我怎么都没想到?!

如果当初你先出现
今天的结局就不会这样了

你能给我一点时间吗?
一点就好


可以吗?

Going out late

Yesterday night I went out for jazz performance by my jazz lecturer.
  My whole family went (since they have to send me)
 So..we got the wrong road at first and everyone has already arrived~
   So sorry XD
 Reached there..called Summer.
  I meet up with him before going in.
 He had a stomach ache..pity~
  At least he bought some meds.
Went into Alexis..its freaking cool!
 Dark..gloomy..romantic~
     This is the kind of place I like actually
We sat together with Xinwei,Fiona and her boyfriend.
  Glad to meet up with xinwei...she seems fine but I guess she is just hiding all inside.
Hmm...so~all the stupid talking starts..
   I didn't notice Weili was just sitting at the table beside us.
He saw me and he walked over to our table and chat for a little while..he really seemed different.
 Much....professional,yea thats the word..
  Watching jazz performance at such a place..how can I stand it without some red wine XD
So we ordered 2 glasses..I shared with both Xinwei and Summer~
Most of Xinwei's I'm the one who is drinking..=.= wth
 Then...I told him about it..
 Freaking god!I didn't expect that...I'm really a freaking idiot!

 Hmm..overall the performance was kinda cool.
   Mostly enjoyed talking with everyone.
Meeting Summer again was fun too.=)
 Thats all for now.

すみません

I said I'm sorry.

 But the message was never transmitted.


 Is the word not clear enough?


 Or is it that your heart is denying everything?


 This is not what we choose..i know~


 That is why I'm saying sorry..

                                   You'll never get it