Are you happy?

I saw this on facebook just now~
This is exactly what I was thinking

Best day after for so long~

Yesterday had been simple but yet..I felt it once again..
The true warmth of caring and relationship..

Firstly~ I finally finished my management assignment yesterday!
Yahoo!! One down..2 more to go!

Anyway~ my childhood friend came over yesterday...by childhood I really mean child..we knew each other since kindergarten..
Same class..same school in primary~ same secondary...finally same class in our last 2 high school years.
After since graduated...everything changed~ so thats how it is like in college...

Hmm~ initially I was thrilled to leave secondary school and hurry to proceed to college life...but then It ended up not what I expected..
Complicated and social-surrounded kinda life...
Humans with weird personality and behaviour...humans with no idea what kind of plot hiding in them~
Most of them just care of themselves~(others of them are actually really nice)

So...last night we chat a lot~
Simple chats that doesn't need any topic or similarities...just what we know and what we are thinking..
Talking without worrying any secret will leak out..talk without limitation~
We had a great time fooling around with out 'went-to-us' friend XD
How nice if she was here with us...

Anyhow~ everything has an ending..
This time...I felt it~ distance would not be a problem for friendship..
Friends that are sincere can only be seen through time


Love u guys~
永遠の友達

10 things about me

I've thought of this lately..what are the characteristics of me

1. I am a girl who loves to 'decorate' myself. This is because who I was previously...fat and ugly (not to say that I'm not now)~ this is the only thing that I could be more confident..

2. Loves music..mainly composing~ hmm...this is because of my personality. I like own creations..this is how I express myself. I am not good in describing things in words. The only way I can 'talk' without limits is through compositions.

3. To me friends are more than anything. Friends are really important to me as I am the type of person who cant bear with loneliness and not talking as I crap a lot XD.. My friends are my most precious and proud possessions~

4. I don't really have confident in myself~ I mean outlook wise. I actually cared a lot about how people look at me. Its like a little kind of phobia as I mentioned before, bad looking so I couldn't hope for any confident in myself. To me I'm always that fat and ugly..

5. I don't wait for people to give me the things I hope for. If I see something I want, I'll look for a way to get it my own.. To me it is quite a non-realistic dream... To wait must well earn it on your own.

6. I am scared of some dogs..mainly unknown dogs~ the only once I'm not afraid is my aunt's dog.

7. Hope to move out and live independently. This was my dream for a long time..too bad I can't get this chance.. How nice if I could go out at night and hangout with friends until midnight~ no worries of time limits..no worries of reporting to parents..no worries of transport to school.

8. Hate unfair stuffs. It damn drives me crazy... For certain things I really count it very precisely.. I cant think of anything exact right now.

9. Wished to perform in cafes and events. I really love to perform as a pop musician..to sing as well as playing. My voice may not sound that awesome but it could be used at a certain limit.. Currently waiting for jobs to start or else I'll be bored to death..

10. I love Japan like...A LOT! I love to listen love to speak love to read..I wonder if I were from Japan last life XD
I currently took up Japanese class and I'm working hard for it ^^ really wish that I could speak fluently =)

These are the main 10 things about me =)

If

If I could be a little more hardworking..

If I could be a little more talented...

If I could be a little more confident...


I would have done it as the best~

Sometimes things may not be as the way we want it to be..but what I learnt from all these living years is...

'Improvise' as you can~
recreate your destiny =)

Selfish people

Before I get into my main topic I'll brag a little about today.

I really hate Monday. 

I guess nobody will like it huh..I really missed my bed so much this morning~

  Woke up early morning and prepared for class.

 Workshop was fine as I didn't really showed my lecturer anything new for composition tutorial.

     Every time I think about it and I get annoyed. Why do lecturers love to ban our compositions?

 The chord sounds logic but perhaps the progression is not that awesome..after all compositions are about the sound..the tone color~

  Anyway other classes are fine as well.

So here is the main point~

   There are many kinds of human in this world. 

The one that annoys me the most is actually selfish people.

  By selfish I mean those who only think about themselves and don't give a fuck about the world.

 Everything must be within their control.

    Sad case is when you helped these kind of human but yet when you needed some in return you only get a piece of shit from them.

  I wonder what are in these people's mind..don't they feel a little sorry for themselves?

    Everyone wants to be treated nicely..everyone hopes that they can get some assistance during needed times.

  Why can't they think that way?

 Some even happens to best friends ( who actually trust the wrong person)

    Sometimes the more you know someone and the more you help them, they won't remember what you did for them and even repay in a horrible way.

  

  People please..

   Think about others more than yourself.

You are living in the world where there are other humans with their own emotions. 

      Don't be such an ignorant and take advantage of people's kindness.

 

   

  

Chilling on Friday

Its Friday again today~
Planned to chill out and hang around today and I did it..

I woke up at 11 something in the morning and I feel awesome =)
Had brunch that my dad got us and after that I did some treatment to my hair as usual..
I was still affected by my anger yesterday as our ensemble practise was canceled due to the selfish brat!
Everything is always about herself and everyone must follow her timing and schedule ==
If it isn't she being the worst player we wouldn't have worried about the quality of our performance during the concert time...
Fine then~ I couldn't be bothered anymore...

Back to what I was doing..
My best pal that I've known for 8 years finally came over my house to hangout~ its been such a long time since I last met her...missed her like hell especially when there are so many awful things happened these days..

We chat for about 3 hours and its really nice to have someone to talk ^^
I really hope that everything that she is dealing now could end up in a better way...don't lose hope =)
Love you 💙

So~ its goes on

Tuesday the hectic day again...
Class since the morning..then ensemble practise for tomorrow's lunchtime concert~
We're doing 'Love the way you lie' our version...I think it sounds kinda awesome in a way...

Whats shocking today is that I passed my lecturer and seminar assignment which I don't hell know how to do..
My lecturer said it was fine~ Thats a really huge relieve for me..

Then after class I went over to Paradigm with a senior...she chat with me for some time while waiting for the big lousy lazy pig to arrive...
Always freaking late!!! Every time gotta wait for this freaking pig! Its annoys me sometimes...
Gahh...frustrated of waiting...
Anyway I saw them...at Paradigm~
So....as expected~ whatever..I'm out of the freaking story right now...
I'll just mind my own business =)

Thanks

Its been tough lately..but I think I can cope with it now and I know what to do =)

Right now only you guys will read this so here it is...thanks for your advise and for trying to cheer me up~
I don't mind losing anymore since there is no more value there...
I'll keep to my own pride and move on~

Thanks for everything guys...
At least I know where to head for..

ありがとうみなさん＼(^o^)／
心配するな,それわ超えている

Tool?

 Limits?
I got it anyhow..
I'm not a toy..I'm not a tool..
I'm a freaking human for god sakes!!

  take and throw take and throw..
So this is my value...I see~

Fine then..

     I won't show any mercy then..
You wanna calculate..I'll give you double!

Try me

Changes

Everything changes..


Because our way of living




Changes~

Forgotten?

Before going in to what I feel..lets start a little about today..
So~ mom is not working so we went to Mines book fair..guess what? I got a japanese language book that I hell loved it!! <3
I'm gonna learn it hard..watch me
I've been really walking whole day since morning..its really nice though buying things that you really like..

Do guys ever wonder why girls love shopping so much?
I'll tell you here...apart from personal interest to get something..it makes us girls have some time to pause our minds from thinking unwanted things..its like time stops at those moment~ looking at pretty things...testing those cosmetic testers..all we care about that moment is to decide whether to buy it or not..
Its actually alike the reason why guys play games online.. =)

Okay...these days had been tough for me..
To be honest..I've never been that down for the rest of my life..
I guess I can only show out to some people...someone even said that I don't look like me anymore..its like soulless..
Hmm...I really couldn't help it this time..
I've been totally thrown into a nowhere island to die there alone..(almost)
I've been thinking a lot...am I the one who causes the problem? Am I the one who is too sensitive?
Gahhh...social problem ><
Seriously I'm really pissed off...
Is it that hard to give me a hand? Do something for your friend that you're capable of? To sound more pathetic..help those who really needed?!
I guess this is what they mean by '日久见人心' (translation:see someone by the inside as time passes)
I put everything in to help, advise...and how often I say no to a request?!
I don't hope for any repay but...at least a better treatment perhaps?

*no matter what...sometimes you're just left alone..this is the reality
Who never felt lonely? I presume even god does sometimes (no offense)*

hope for a change..hope for a cure =)