Zzz..*wake..huh??

                   Tired tired...
                       Kept feeling sleepy these days..
                 My god..really feel like getting on bed and sleep till tomorrow's noon..
                      God..my pillow~

                   What the??cut the crap already!! *talking to myself.XD
             Practise!!!
                   Guess what??My piano teacher must have had a fever..
                  She gave me a new piece...
                     'Novelette' by Poulenc~
                 Oh my god!!Its damn tough...could't even get the notes right..
              5 flats...weird timing..~
                    Arghhhhh...><
                 This is really challenging me now~
                Whats bad is I don't think I could complete it before semester exam..XX
                       god! I really need advise from Chopin...
            
               Hmm..what else~
                   oh yea..today's vocal class was ok..
               I finally caught the technique but not that stable..yet~
                   At least I don't feel that much pain in my throat anymore...
                *clap clap..^^
 
                   I guess I'll stop here now..
                Man...really tired~


                        Lastly...missed you^^
                

               My days was fine..
                Its just I'm getting more and more tired even though I slept early..><
               I wonder why??
                 These days I realize that this is the 1st time that I actually wanted to go to school on my own will..><
           Good improvement...LOL..
            Its not that relax but I feel good doing it...
                Knowing that I improved in my skills...it really make me feel great~
          Whats most important is....I don't have to study chinese!!!!!
            glad glad plus glad..^^
                   I really liked college life...
                  Simple and not that tensed~ (at least for now)
            
              Hmm..presentation preparation is coming out quite well...
                  Its just that...that composer that I'm presenting of..
            has damn long life!!!his things are sooooo long..=.=
                   Its okay...I could finish things up by maybe..this week?


                 Just now in the afternoon I went driving with my mum..
            Those that know my mom..shes very panicky~
                      We went through quite a narrow road at housing area..
            I had a bad judgement and thought I could pass through where there is car coming opposite me..
           I end up scratching the side of my mom's car~
                 The other car that I 'hit' was okay..its just mom's car.><
                   I felt guilty after that because of my mom's reaction.
              Its okay if I bang...but ...moms..><
                                  Its okay now..just need time to calm down~
          
                    Oh yea..this thursday I am suppose to go out with old friends..
            But some problem came up..
                 So sorry yea dears..
                          Next time kayz??
        

      
          
          

Its over

                 So sorry bloggie that I haven't been touching you for quite some time...><
                Quite busy these days..
                    Too tired and lazy to blog..XD
             Ps..really missed you bloggie..

               Here I go again..
             Long story here...
              Go on surviving in college~classes and classes..
             Not much homework but lots of time to practise.
          I seriously put all my effort in practising electone...but still couldn't really control my coordination..
            piano...no idea what to do...
              I kept feeling like a total amateur after listening to seniors and scholarship award performance on weds..
          I was thinking~when the heck could I play like that..><
                 Gosh...i really wish I could go back to the age of 4 and practice like MAD!
         Hmm...real competitive..thank god I'm not really into performance...=)


               I'm quite a naughty girl lately..
                  Just 3 weeks of schooling and I've been out to Sunway Piramid for at least 1 time per week..><
             Mom will kill me if she knows..XX (dead meat then)
                  Shut up for the people who knows..XD
                ^^..whats the most is I get to meet him~
              hehe~
               I enjoyed last night...
                
              Owh!
            Back to the biggest issue...
               I got my SPM results~
              All I could say is 'ITS OKAY~'
            Damn disappointed with my english!
                 I couldn't believe that I could get  B+ for english...
           what could I do..just to accept it..><

                  Forget it~
             Whats over is over..
                         got to go people..

Dedicated to someone..

             My heart feels weird

               Hearing your confession deep down in your heart

                 I'm sorry I cant do what you said

            My vision kept going blur

         It feels watery

               Again...I cant really control myself

           I don't like you to think that way

             Its not true..

                   Im really doubting right now

              Could this really go on?
                 Or...make another path...

            I need your answer...

                 You're always not free

             I'm always waiting..

                    Really missed our past times..

sorry~
    
            

              
            

My 1st semester

                   My 1st sem is kinda cool..
                    Within 2 weeks...I went to sunway piramid for 2 times for movie..XD
                  We are just..CRAZY!
              So this is it..Last night I went for movies again with seniors and Xinwei..
               We watches World Invasion.
                Conclusion : The movie is freaking awsome!
            It is so damn great..it has a real touching part in between..
             Great effects...great actors..cool..

            Mostly..wished he could be there with me..
          Too bad he went outstation~
                Never mind..chances will come soon or later^^

             I really had fun..watching movies and having dinner at Sakae Sushi..(1st time there)
        Great movie with great food...XD
               Equals=fun.=)
            More fun things will come later^^
              Its just our 1st month XD
                  

My recent updates

                     I'm trying to cope with life these days..
          He is not here...went to Beijing with his family~
                Left me here alone..><
                  Again I live without his name appearing in my phone screen~
            Hmm...just a few days...should be okay..^^

               Theres another problem annoying me...
              My old friend...
                Its been such a long time since the last time I met them..
              Now its like we are totally in a 2 different world~
               It really feels weird..even when we're talking through net now..I felt the distance between us..
          ><..I really don't like it.
                 Even if I stay strong in this friendship..they may not do as I do..
             Is this really near the end??
                   Looking at their facebook...
               They really had a good time in their own life now...I'm happy for them..
               ...but..sometimes I have no idea to be happy or not..
        

                        Now i get it...the turning point of life...college life~
              Things changes whether we like it or not~
                    All I could do is just look...and follow the flow~
            
            Perhaps thats life??
              わからない

Japan part 2

              A song I dedicate for the Japanese..
                     Good luck people..
                       I'll pray hard~

Japan..T.T

               Oh my god...
                I feel so so sorry for Japan..
              The place I love the most in the whole wide world~
                Watching the tsunami from the tv...
              Gosh...it hurts me~
                       Please be safe..Japan

             がんばってください!

            Free today!!
                 I have no class for the wholeday...
              So I stayed at home~

          Yesterday night I stayed back at school until 9pm..

              Morning was good..history classes..electone class and solfege(the teacher is damn cute)

         After that my time is free till the night..

                Went out for a movie with Elaine and Xinwei..

                 Its called 'Big Momma'..

           Its damn funny...the cinema is seriously vibrating with everyone's laughter~

               I really enjoyed it with them..glad to have them as my new friends..

            Whats most important is I get to meet him^^

                 Even though its just for a few minutes..but its enough for me..=)

          Really missed him..

               Before that when I was working..we could meet on weekends..but now~

              *Sigh..

       Just hope the future will be better^^

                  あいしてるばか～

                     I'm afraid I'll load you up...

                        I'm afraid I cause you problem..

                              I'm afraid I'll affect your future in a bad way...
 
                                   I'm afraid because of me you'll lose some good chances..

                                        I'm afraid things will get worse for you...

               I'm afraid that you're afraid..><  

so...

                It was better than what I expected..
                  Wooh...it was cool!
               Seniors were nice...not bad at all..
                     Its just that I think I have to be very hardworking if I wana make his right..
            Haven't listen to the seniors performance..but i think I could imagine dat..XX
               Hmm...this is what I chose..I don't think I will regret^^
                 Conclusion...my day was damn fine!
  
               The only thing that make me feel bad is getting him to come here to meet me..
                 Real sorry I didn't make use of his time~wasted his money...
              Gosh....my bad!
                    I know he will say its okay...hmm..hes always like that^^
            Really knows how to tolerate me...
              ごねまさい...(sorry)
                

                                                いつのあなたといっしょに～ばか  =P

Finally...its coming

               Like always..days passed by
                Tomorrow is a big day for me^^
                        This seriously is d 1st time of my life that I am so eager to study~
                   It has never been this way..

            Just now I went to get my manuscript book and meanwhile went back to my ex- working place..
             Saw my fellow colleagues...kinda miss the old days
                    They saw me and got 'high'~
              They said without me going crazy there its damn boring for them...
                I kinda miss them too..they are the one who are with me everyday at work..
                    Sayonara guys..T.T

            Waiting for the arrival of tomorrow...
                  The day that I've waited for my wholelife^^
             Seriously...all my life I've been waiting for this moment..my future pathway~
                  Wait for me ...

The reason

               Everything happens for a reason.


                   when the wind blows...
                         Leaves shivers..


          When finger touches the surface of the water
                               Waves spreads...

                        
                           When I raise my head and look up into the sky
               I caught my reason..
                        Reason to my determination~


                      The reason is...
                                                              to express my feelings to the atmosphere..to the world.
                                      through my own way..

                        

                         Just wait....soon it will come~
                                  Language of the universe...
                                          Music~

End of an end~

                          The night is making me emo..
                  The air is humid..its warm in my living room..
                    I'm sitting by my laptop..
                            Thinking back of all the days I've been through for the past few weeks..
                It seems that a lot have gone through without me noticing~
                   1st day or work was memorable to me..
                 Damn stupid and clueless..
                    Ling was the 1st person to approach me..
           Next was the funny ahbi who looks strict but is so crazy in person..
             I was really fooled by his appearance..
      A really nice big brother who helped me out a lot..
            Ling..nice gurl who is cute and funny..always go out with me to get some ice cream^^
               Boss..okay..not much complaint..kinda good to me~
           The malays..not bad but sometimes they could be a meanie~
        
             Everything has became part of my memories..
                 These people..this place..
             Right now..I have no more complaints anymore..
         I learnt that..I could accomplish and accept anything in this world..just think positive^^
                 Most important..have faith in yourself~(thx lovey)
        
           Tomorrow will be a different day~
                  Enjoy people^^