It seems that..

It seems that I have everything
It seems that I have lots of job
It seems that I've got lots of friends..

Then i realize~ right now friend that I could entrust my heart to is limited...
One is near to me..accompanied me a lot~ listen to what I had to say,.
Second is graduated from school..uet always keep up to my life...wonderin if I'm fine of time being..
Third has always been my friend and it has been for 8 years..she go her own life right now..I missed her a lot but I couldn't bear to make a fuss to her..
Forth had left school..he always and will be there for me and listen..i told him I was unhappy and he asked me out to talk..
Fifth is in America but we contact a lot..i told her almost every part of my life

It seems that there are a lot of people around me that cares.
But...im not priority to them~ they got their own lives..
This has been me all the time to let burden not to be burden...
I rather that I'll be the place for people when they need it..I gave everything I had and yet...what is left back..

Where do I belong?
Is there any place where I can be the prior?
Somewhere that I can lay back on and rest....

Where is it?

Lazy me is back

College life really is hectic~
My blog is dead for ages since the last time I posted..
Hmm how do I start~

Studies are not really good for now...Im suffocated by assignments that I barely know how to do..
Compositions that are restricted..I really don't like it..compositions are supposed to be what we feel and what we think..its almost like an essay of abstract title..why should we be restricted??
Skip that..

I really missed the life when I was in semester 1...its simple and happy..I don't have to deal with any complicated things..but now =(
I really get emotional very often recently...friends~ assignment~ jobs~ missing someone ><

Where do I belong?
Is there any place where I can cling on? Will someone be there for me?

8th April.

I've not been blogging like..for a century I guess?

Sorry bloggie I left you alone again~
  These weeks had been hectic for me.
Assignment that I've never done before in my whole life suddenly came in..
 Analysis on classical pieces really making me crazy...
   I never cared about classical thingy and now forced to think..duh

  Hmm...something is wrong with me lately.
       I am practically busy all the time but there are times where I feel lonely too.
   5 seconds doing nothing and I kinda feel that already.
      
     Sifu has been entertaining me these days..listen to what I had to grump~
    Making me laughed like hell..
      Sigh...perhaps he is the only one that I feel comfortable to talk to.
   Everyone and everything in school is getting.....weird~
   Perhaps I'm wrong but thats what I felt.
        I already regret not transferring to other schools but what can I do now..
  I've got no choice but to go on...
    
       I took in some projects and it might be a good thing for my career.
    Just hope I get a chance in competitions...
       I need to improve myself in composing..singing and sound sensitivity.
    Fuck classical..you're so blocking my way.

  Duh...I'll stop here~
     Freaking assignment is waiting for me

Interesting pichas

Hmm~for today I'm kinda lazy so I'll just post some interesting pictures I've found on my phone's application =)

Anyway~ If you like it feel free to download..

Luck?

Luck is playing around with me recently.
Last post I was kinda frustrated about the audition but then...
I went for it that night.
The the singers there was awesome~
Anyway I went and have a try. Steve accompanied me with is guitar and i started to sing.
I was shocked myself...the voice over the microphone doesn't even sound like me.. The high notes that I usually could not reached sounded out perfectly.
I really enjoyed the feel up there..totally relaxed~ it feels like a comfort zone to me ^^
So after the audition passed, Steve came to me and told me that I got the job.
After this I will take on wedding performance as well~ oh gawd
I can't believe this is going on..

Hope for the best <3

Friday freak

    I've not been blogging for sometime so here I am...back.
 Things have gotten a bit...out of my box lately.
  Chances..offers I've never had.
  Should I say...the industry luck that I have?

 I'll go through one by one.
So as the holiday started, things changed.
  This time of holiday I would consider it quite useful and meaningful.
  I knew a friend...studying in Raffles University in Singapore who does lighting..mixing work in a concert.
 He was a friend of a friend I could say.
    I told him about what I want to do in the future.
 He was interested to help me out.
    He offered me a assistant job in live performance backstage mixing.
  It was a freaking great opportunity for me but unfortunately I have to turn him down since I'm just a beginner and I really could not afford to have any mistakes during a live performance.
   So...I feel so sorry for myself ><

 Working and working.
 Thats all I did..class replacement.
    A guitar teacher that I knew from where I work suddenly offered me a job in Station One.
 Live performance for singing and keyboard...as well as accepting offers for wedding performances.
   I've decline one offer last December and I was freaking frustrated about it since it is so far from where I lived.
      I really can't believe that my parents allowed me to go for it ( guess they finally accepted who I am )
  It on every Wednesay night 9pm-12am.
    What kinda sucks is..I told Steve ( the friend who offered me) my voice sucks.
 I can barely sing. He still forced me to tryout in their audition and its TONIGHT!!
    OMG OMG OMG..
  Past few days..although its not there yet but then I was freaking scared already.
     Sing...alone...in public...duh..Im so dead ><

      Summer will give me,my mom and my sis a ride there since my mom never want to drive far at night ==
 This is gonna be awesome.The pay is actually not bad for 3 hours per day.
    I'll do this constantly even when school reopens.
      My first ever live job~
 Station One...its your Pride! XDD
        I really doubt my skills to sing...
   Uhh...but then I can't resist any offer like this.so I must well just thickened up my skin and go ahead with the audition~
      Frankly..the pay matters nothing to me.
   Its fun..and I could get some experience to overcome some performing frights.

 Hmm... Things gotten quite awful in my relations last year and so I never think about it anymore.
  Anyway.. Yaya  ( a friend that I know through another friend and we got quite close since she is a really nice girl) went to Taiwan for about 3 weeks and she's slowly getting a grab on their society.
   She's really brave to study there alone..new roommates..new courses and tons of places that she had never seen in her life~
    I kept her in company through phone all these while..at least she's got someone to talk to~
  I really thank for encouraging me all these while and help me up with my vocals =)

 Now...My dear dear Melanie has been in America for about 8 month.
   Enjoying her 'branded' life XD
      Enjoying watching people there...( those with blue eyes and 6 packs)
   Having a great time with the weather there.
     We chat and skype quite often since she left and its really nice feeling that she 's still near every time we chat.
   Love you a lot dear.
     Thanks so much for the Gucci necklace you get me..although I haven get it yet ><
    I'll wear it for you someday ^^
       Waiting for the day you come back here.
    Iphone really did a lot for us huh XDD
    
For those who are reading this..
  Here is a quite for you
' Sometimes when you lose something..you'll get something else much better. So don't complain so soon. '


Its time for me to prepare up my songs for tonight.
Wish me luck.
  

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