So~ its goes on

Tuesday the hectic day again...
Class since the morning..then ensemble practise for tomorrow's lunchtime concert~
We're doing 'Love the way you lie' our version...I think it sounds kinda awesome in a way...

Whats shocking today is that I passed my lecturer and seminar assignment which I don't hell know how to do..
My lecturer said it was fine~ Thats a really huge relieve for me..

Then after class I went over to Paradigm with a senior...she chat with me for some time while waiting for the big lousy lazy pig to arrive...
Always freaking late!!! Every time gotta wait for this freaking pig! Its annoys me sometimes...
Gahh...frustrated of waiting...
Anyway I saw them...at Paradigm~
So....as expected~ whatever..I'm out of the freaking story right now...
I'll just mind my own business =)

Thanks

Its been tough lately..but I think I can cope with it now and I know what to do =)

Right now only you guys will read this so here it is...thanks for your advise and for trying to cheer me up~
I don't mind losing anymore since there is no more value there...
I'll keep to my own pride and move on~

Thanks for everything guys...
At least I know where to head for..

ありがとうみなさん＼(^o^)／
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Tool?

 Limits?
I got it anyhow..
I'm not a toy..I'm not a tool..
I'm a freaking human for god sakes!!

  take and throw take and throw..
So this is my value...I see~

Fine then..

     I won't show any mercy then..
You wanna calculate..I'll give you double!

Try me

Changes

Everything changes..


Because our way of living




Changes~

Forgotten?

Before going in to what I feel..lets start a little about today..
So~ mom is not working so we went to Mines book fair..guess what? I got a japanese language book that I hell loved it!! <3
I'm gonna learn it hard..watch me
I've been really walking whole day since morning..its really nice though buying things that you really like..

Do guys ever wonder why girls love shopping so much?
I'll tell you here...apart from personal interest to get something..it makes us girls have some time to pause our minds from thinking unwanted things..its like time stops at those moment~ looking at pretty things...testing those cosmetic testers..all we care about that moment is to decide whether to buy it or not..
Its actually alike the reason why guys play games online.. =)

Okay...these days had been tough for me..
To be honest..I've never been that down for the rest of my life..
I guess I can only show out to some people...someone even said that I don't look like me anymore..its like soulless..
Hmm...I really couldn't help it this time..
I've been totally thrown into a nowhere island to die there alone..(almost)
I've been thinking a lot...am I the one who causes the problem? Am I the one who is too sensitive?
Gahhh...social problem ><
Seriously I'm really pissed off...
Is it that hard to give me a hand? Do something for your friend that you're capable of? To sound more pathetic..help those who really needed?!
I guess this is what they mean by '日久见人心' (translation:see someone by the inside as time passes)
I put everything in to help, advise...and how often I say no to a request?!
I don't hope for any repay but...at least a better treatment perhaps?

*no matter what...sometimes you're just left alone..this is the reality
Who never felt lonely? I presume even god does sometimes (no offense)*

hope for a change..hope for a cure =)

It seems that..

It seems that I have everything
It seems that I have lots of job
It seems that I've got lots of friends..

Then i realize~ right now friend that I could entrust my heart to is limited...
One is near to me..accompanied me a lot~ listen to what I had to say,.
Second is graduated from school..uet always keep up to my life...wonderin if I'm fine of time being..
Third has always been my friend and it has been for 8 years..she go her own life right now..I missed her a lot but I couldn't bear to make a fuss to her..
Forth had left school..he always and will be there for me and listen..i told him I was unhappy and he asked me out to talk..
Fifth is in America but we contact a lot..i told her almost every part of my life

It seems that there are a lot of people around me that cares.
But...im not priority to them~ they got their own lives..
This has been me all the time to let burden not to be burden...
I rather that I'll be the place for people when they need it..I gave everything I had and yet...what is left back..

Where do I belong?
Is there any place where I can be the prior?
Somewhere that I can lay back on and rest....

Where is it?

Lazy me is back

College life really is hectic~
My blog is dead for ages since the last time I posted..
Hmm how do I start~

Studies are not really good for now...Im suffocated by assignments that I barely know how to do..
Compositions that are restricted..I really don't like it..compositions are supposed to be what we feel and what we think..its almost like an essay of abstract title..why should we be restricted??
Skip that..

I really missed the life when I was in semester 1...its simple and happy..I don't have to deal with any complicated things..but now =(
I really get emotional very often recently...friends~ assignment~ jobs~ missing someone ><

Where do I belong?
Is there any place where I can cling on? Will someone be there for me?